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It’s Wednesday and I’m scared

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It’s Wednesday and I’m scared.
I shouldn’t be scared. All I’m doing is standing up and walking out of my chemistry classroom at 10:00. I’ll maybe not be alone, and I’ll hold the door for someone as they follow me. There will be other students leaving other classes, and we’ll walk to the football field, behind the school. We will wait seventeen minutes. Seventeen minutes isn’t enough for their lives, but it’s symbolic. And so we will wait until three minutes before the bell. And then we will return inside. 

And then it will be over. The administration claims that we will not be punished. I doubt that a massive production will be made, as students across the country will be waiting outside for the same seventeen minutes. Our principal encourages us to stand up for things we’re passionate about. And yet whenever someone mentions that time frame when we will not be in class, my heart skips and my hands shake and my throat closes. And I don’t know why. Maybe my fear of failure is reminding me that I could be suspended. Maybe I’m afraid of walking out alone. Maybe I’m afraid of what will happen if I don’t walk out of Chemistry at 10:00 on Wednesday. 

Maybe there will be a gunman again. Maybe they’ll be someone waiting in the bleachers as the kids leave the school. Maybe we will be the next ones, and there will be a protest for the warriors who fell on the football field while protesting for the need to be safe. 

Maybe I’m just scared. Nothing more than that.

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....I'm wondering if we live in the same county. My school is doing this, too. I know a lot of schools across the country are doing this, but I've just got this gut feeling...


Not quite sure where I'm going, but I'm going somewhere, that's for sure.

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... it’s possible.

I don’t want to be specific bc I’m not a fan of publishing info like this on the internets but I’ve already put somewhere on this site that I’m somewhere on the east coast, and also the mascot of my high school in some more recent writing relating to school. I think that’s vague enough. If you actually want to figure this out I can think of some more vague clues.

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I feel like that too. I'm going to participate in the walkout too, but it's nerve-wracking for more reasons than just my teacher's reactions. (Also, I thought the walkout was a nationwide thing)


respect existence or expect resistance

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@queenie_flower Curiosity killed the cat. I really wanna figure this out...I couldn't find that writing, btw. You don't have to give me clues if you're uncomfortable, though.


Not quite sure where I'm going, but I'm going somewhere, that's for sure.

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@justaddbooks it is a nationwide thing but Marshall’s got a hunch. @Short_comedian Okay buddy let’s figure this out without me revealing my exact location bc then it’d be too easy to find me lol. So, my school mascot is the warrior and our school colors are blue and gold. 

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Shh shh secret location

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We did it. Snow was blowing everywhere, and it was freezing, but I can endure seventeen minutes of being cold if other people had to endure losing a loved one, fear for their lives, or dying. 

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