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  1. intro things :D

    *insert big emphatic keysmash here* oh the new site is so pretty!! i love it :~) i'm violet i'm 16 i love to read and write and also SCREAM about my interests. i could talk about my favorite bands for hours but!! that's for another thread. tell me about yourselves, y'all!
  2. i thought we'd have more time

    1 i’m from the timeline where we never met, lemmings. you should know this by now. it’s why i get so giddy when you call, why my voice quakes and shudders around you. and still i worry that part of me isn’t quite over 2013-14, what happened then. the things you said, the things i did in response. 2 i tell myself it’s normal that i’m so drawn to you. this isn’t your fault, you know. it’s me. it’s the way i was programmed—to see things in u.v. light only, a dark sort of glow around it all. & around you, in my mind: steel blue. you tell me that you’re sorry for what happened back then, the things you said. how i reacted. i don’t know how to tell you that i haven’t processed any of it—just locked it all away. 3 explaining the undercurrent of terror that runs through my talks with you, about you, etc., is impossible. that’s not to say i don’t know where it came from—but i can’t explain why it’s still here. i’m trying to convince myself that this is fine, but you’re the only one of my friends who scares me. i thought i had worked the terror out of my words, but apparently not. 4 i swear i love you. there’s just this awfulness that lives inside of me, whispering in my ear, maybe he’s still bad. maybe he still wants to hurt you. and part of me knows that’s not true. part of me doesn’t care. all in one breath i’m crying into a pillow, saying what if he hates me, what if we’re growing apart, and then: it doesn’t matter. it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter. 5 i don’t know what things would be like if i had stayed in the timeline where we never met. but despite everything, i’m glad to be in this one.
  3. pinterest?

    heY do any of y'all use pinterest? like for collecting insp for projects and whatnot? bc i'm struggling to find things that capture the Vibe of my latest project and!!!! my pinterest dash is dead
  4. Currently reading?

    @Ainm my grandma read Lab Girl and she bought a copy of it for my aunt, for xmas! i'm currently reading difficult women for the second time this year bc it's what i Need to read rn, you know? and after that i'm going to work my way thru the massive pile of library books in the living room.
  5. Characters!

    MOOD!
  6. Oh, my darling

    :( <333
  7. chapbooks!

    i will!
  8. chapbooks!

    i have a chapbook about soulmates that i'm working on, and so i was wondering, i guess, if any of y'all have chapbooks you'd like to share?
  9. chapbooks!

    good idea!!! i bought watercolor paper and red string today and im gonna bind my chapbook w/ red thread :D
  10. chapbooks!

    addendum: watercolor paper, pastel watercolors like shades of?? pink and purple. yeah.
  11. chapbooks!

    the red string of fate... yes. but i have this Vision (TM) of a watercolor cover? and idk how i could work the red string into that, you know?
  12. chapbooks!

    also! does anyone have ideas or concepts or whatever for if i'm doing a chapbook abt soulmates? bc i'm planning to print 10 or so copies to start and i need Ideas for the cover, you know?
  13. tired girl howls, act three

    mouse i am so sorry... i love you so much.
  14. chapbooks!

    i’m sure questions will come to me as i format it!!!! thank you <3
  15. chapbooks!

    i love them!!!!!!!! a note: does anyone have tips for Uh producing chapbooks??? like how to hand-bind them and whatnot.
  16. im sorry, mom

    hey logan? i love you
  17. nanowrimo excerpt

    okay so long story short arden got sick of pippa dumping a lotta Heavy Shit on her? and was like "can't deal am going back to asheville" so!!!!
  18. nanowrimo excerpt

    I cleared my throat. “Arden?” She looked up, her hair hanging in her face. “Yes?” “Um. I…um. I can’t really sleep alone. I won’t...we don’t have to be touching, I just—can’t.” A nod, sharp and understanding. “Okay.” She got up from the end of the bed and walked over to the other side of the bed, next to me. “Do you want me to turn the lights out? Would that make talking about...what you need to tell me easier?” I nodded. “Yes, please.” She turned the lights off, and then the lamps. She crawled into bed next to me, and wrapped her arms around me. “Is this okay?” I nodded. She can’t see me. “This is good.” “Okay. Do you feel ready to talk about it?” I sighed. “I’ll never be 100% ready, but I’m as close as I’ll ever be.” I took a deep breath. “My mom…” Inhale. Exhale. Am I going to start crying? “She…she hurt me. Touched me and I’m still not over it but it’s been years and I—” Quick breath in. I realized my eyes were filling with tears and buried my face in Arden’s shoulder. “I’m sorry,” I said, voice muffled. She rubbed my back. “It’s okay. My parents got a divorce, which isn’t quite as bad. But I understand having a favorite parent, at least.” I tilted my face up to her cheek and kissed her there. She pulled away from me. “Hey, no. Are you sure you want to do this? We can just sleep, if that’s what you want, or what you need. I won’t be upset.” “I don’t know. Does it matter?” A hint of sternness in her voice. “Of course it matters. Come here.” She kissed me, tenderly, on the lips. I felt her smile. “Good night, Pippa.” Author's note: a fluffy thing detailing my girls! who were supposed to have a slow-burn romance, but that didn't happen!!!! and i,, love them a lot.
  19. nanowrimo excerpt

    oh man you will not BELIEVE this they broke up and i'm too lazy to rewrite it but it was HOPEFULLY for the good of the plot you know??
  20. who wants!!!!!!! to see My FACE!!!!!!!!!!! wow uhhh i am Having A Time

  21. intro things :D

    okay so ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS the mountain goats. went to their concert here in charlotte (pics) and almost died! not RLY but ykno?? also: car seat headrest (twin fantasy especially), tegan & sara, carly rae jepsen (EMOTION), perfume genius, flatsound.
  22. Some tips

    yes! there's a hyperlink at the bottom of the signature text editor that says "attach files" but it has to be a file that's in your computer
  23. i am not haunted by the dead

    this is a very pretty poem but also very sad. i’m sorry.
  24. i'll have you know, i read your about and cackled.

     

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