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  1. bug log/community q&a

    Here's a picture, when I go to select forum I can highlight and select poetry and fiction, but nonfiction will not highlight or allow me to select.
  2. Embellished Truth

    Sheets of paper lay haphazardly all around the room. My hands sort and shuffle, bring papers up to eye level and replacing them in the chaos. My eyes are ravenous for something. Something I can’t define before I find it. I do find a weight, an almost friend that whispers insidiously in my ear. I’m looking for a reassurance that the life I’m living is something other than the whispers proclamations of wastefulness and evil. Nowhere in the writings of before is there a blade of light that has the power to illuminate. Each bright spot fades out reflecting off of dust before it penetrates the gloom at the bottom of my mind.
  3. bug log/community q&a

    Is there a reason I can't submit in nonfiction? It's bolded and I can't select it when I go to the create tab. Is it going to open at a later date? or?
  4. intro things :D

    Hey! I have been on here for just short of 5 years. I don't write much anymore, but I really want to get back to it. Being a stem major in college has taken time away from my love of reading and writing. I love getting to read all work posted here, and will lurk for ever. Hopefully I can get back to writing before I age out!
  5. The Desperate Spy Extended

    There she stands as always, leaning against her door frame, watching the alley. His hooded figure stalking up though untold amounts of muck, the steely determination in his eyes betrays who he is looking for. “Natan.” Irina coldly acknowledges. Looking over the mud spattered clothing cloaking his emaciated figure. “I need help.” He confides. His eyes locking with her’s as she looks up from his threadbare attire. “For food?” She haggles. An evil grin tugging her lips out of the customary scowl she wears. “I am just as hungry as you are yourself.” He petitions back. Fear crossing his eyes for the first time. A cart storms down the narrow alley they stand in, sending Natan into the cold stone wall. “Irina, from the goodness of you heart, will you help me?” He resumes speaking in a pleading tone as soon as the cart was past. Irina takes her time, but when she does speak it is to acquiesce. “Oh, Nat. I’ll help you, but you must not keep anything from me if I am to be of any use.” Her tough facade is crumbling. He chewed his lip in concentration. Or so it looks, one must not trust a spys face to tell his mind. “I will tell you everything.” He finaling consents. With that she turns, sweeping her long skirt across the threshold. His broad shoulders soon block the light coming through the tunnel like doorway. Shoving a scalding cup of tea into Natan’s hesitantly extended hands Irina fixed a look that dared him to go back upon his word. “Where to start…” Natan sighs, “I suppose the beginning is best. You remember Jokin? Well we were hired to track down a man suspected of being a assian.” his face clouds with a wistful expression, “I didn’t want to take it, but Jokin was set. He was going to find out what this man was up to. We didn’t even have a name to start with.” Irina’s elbows now rest firmly on the table. “When we reached Melken we had to split up, its hard to track a man in a city that big, let alone gather what his plans are.” Here his narrative abruptly stops. His eyes glaze as he stares into the tea, plucking it off the table to take a large gulp, “I haven’t seen Jokin since then.” “Such is the life of a spy.” Irina adds sharply, however she quickly takes it back remembering the time she spent training the two young men, “Jokin was a good man, and a better spy. He’d want you to finish your mission.” “Thats why I need your help.” laughter fills the dunk kitchen. “I mean it Irina.” Abruptly the joyful noise stops. “Nat, I’m retired. What could I possibly do to help you? Your one of the best, young, but not without experience.” “Irina.” Natan takes a moment, seemingly rethinking his plan. “Irina, you are the best.” The thin old woman scoffs. “Look at yourself! You have never ever failed to bring back the information needed, and no one has ever caught you, even though you trained the most people over the thirty some years you were a spy!” She looks on almost sadly at his fervent rant. “Nat, we all lose our touch.” “But you didn’t! Its just that no one wants an old woman working their case!” He is standing now, wildly gesturing about, as she chews her lip. “For Jokin?” “Alright.” She lets out a sigh, grabbing her cloak, “Lets get a move on.” glancing over they smile at one another. The journey takes a few days, due in part to Irina’s age and part to the amount of time that they have to devote to begging if they were to be alive upon reaching Melkin. Once the unlikely duo is there they lose no time in tracking down the man they suspect of kidnapping Jokin. Who Irina soon weasels the name out of a portly innkeeper. As it turns out they are looking for a young man named Ryker. “Ryker, Ryker…” Irina softly chants, a scowl indented on her face. “Your doing it again.” Nat says interrupting her in between bites of the stale bread they have spread out between them. “Natan, how many times did I tell you not to distract me!” Irina angry waves her hand about before grabbing a chunk of bread. “I feel like I know what to do, but darn it, I’m too old to remember.” he guffaws, choking on the bread. “Irina, age has nothing to do with it. Its the fact that we have nothing, and the only option is grabbing at our spies intuition. Which as a great teacher once said that, ‘Grabbing at intuition is a difficult thing to do, for only some have the right type, and no matter the type its like clearing a misted over mirror.’.” “Shut you smart mouth.” She grumbles in response as yet again she loses herself in an attempt to figure out the mystery. “ Nat, did you say that Jokin was heading to the Grambiar neighbourhood?” “Yes.” he snaps. “I need to go there.” she leaps up wit agility one would have thought she had long lost. The young man is slower but not by much to gather his legs underneath himself. “No, you are not coming. He knows what you're doing here by now.” She reprimands, speaking as a mother would to her wayward child. “I don’t care! Last time I let anyone one go alone they got abducted, and likely murdered!” His voice raises hysterie entering it. “If you come we will both reach that fate, if you let me go alone I look no different from any other old woman. No one attacks a old woman. I will be free to find out where Jokin is.” She softly explains taking his calloused hand in her wrinkled one. “And, Nat? If I don’t come back don’t go looking for me, I’m old my dieing now is alright. You life is yet new.” He nods, crumpling back to the ground. She sadly smiles, with a whoosh of cloth shes gone into the crowded streets. As her small feet pick their way through the crowd she tosses her cloak about, flipping it so the delicate silk lining shows. Then she slips on the neckless with the little clear rock. Smiling as she stops in front of a shop to cover her cheeks in a powder with a rosy tint and her lips in a cream the color of blood. She continued her march through the buzzing city, but now its crowds part for her. Upon reaching the stately homes marking Grambiar she stops, glancing up and down the deserted road with its heavily laden chestnut trees she begins to work her way up and down the street checking each mail box. She counties in this way until she reaches one halfway down the block. The envelope she holds has Mr. Buiren written elegantly across its front. Her face glazes over as she places it carefully back in the box. Walking the three steps needed to reach the ancient tree she reaches up to grasp the first branch. Then the second as she begins to climb into the leafy hideout. Light seeps out of the sky as carriages began to draw up and carry people out from various houses on the street. Each driver sending a groom to the door to help his client down the stairs. A carriage drawn by four horses whose coats gleam golden slows to a stop below a tree, a tree with a unknown occupant. Like all the other times a carriage has drawn up a ritual begins, one of the two young men clinging to to back of the carriage jumps down and runs under the line of the trees and up to the door of the house, knocking three times on what ever stately wood was present in the form of a door. When a person or a couple emerge dressed in silk and fine wool the man says their name, before ushering them down to the awaiting carriage. At this particular door a young man dressed in a black wool coat trimmed in gold opens the door. He begins his walk to the road before the groom is done exclaiming, “Master Ryker Buiren, your carriage awaits!” Up in that tree Irina begins to lower herself down as soon as the carriage door is shut, she has a boy to rescue. Walking directly up to the front door Irina knocks with purpose. No hint of the turmoil of fear gripping her inside shows upon her pompous expression or slight frame with its disguise of billowing silk. There is a great rush, someone running to the window above her, whispers ensue from just inside the door. After a long conversation in hush tones the door is slowly opened by a young woman. “What can I do for you ma'am?” The girls rich country accent betrays her as a servant despite her elegant dress. “I’m looking for Ryker Buiren.” Irina smiles, warmth erupting from her face displacing the concocted expression. “I understand he’s out for the evening, but may I wait for him inside? My hotel is a long walk and I have already sent off my carriage.” “Oh, yes of course Ma’am!” The servant exclaims throwing the door open. She leads Irin into the bowels of the fine home, up the stairs and past the door which must lead to the room over with the window over the door, and into the finely decked out sitting room. “Can I get you anything Ma’am?” “No, dear, I’m sure you have plenty of work without me giving you trouble!” Irina laughly adds, taking in the faint line of a blade across the girls cheek, and the bruise just blossoming from underneath the neckline of her dress. The girl blushes as she turns to leave. Bringing a ring of keys into view. “Although I am quite cold, would tea be a trouble?” “Not at all Ma’am!” She exclaims now rushing out the door. When she returned carrying a tray of tea and biscuits, Irina leaps to her feet, carefully helping the girl lay it out, her well trained hands spilling a plate onto the floor. “I’m every so sorry!” Irina exclaims as the girl bends to pick up the scattered biscuits. Quicker then one can see Irina reaches, using all the finesse she possesses, and grasps the ring of keys, plucking at the knot that holds them on a worn leather belt. gathering the plateful of ruined food the girl silently begins to walk towards the door, “No need to bring more dear, I’ve already causes much too much trouble.” Once the soft footfalls of the girl have faded away Irina jumps nearly silently to her own feet, creeping to the doorway and down the hall towards the stairs. Stopping at the door she sorts through the six keys in her hand, grumbling as she passed one bronze key after another though her fingers. Finally she picks a worn one to grasp firmly and place in the handle of the door. A hearty click echos through the hall, bringing heavy beaten foot falls towards her from within the room she stand at the door for. Easing the door open she peers into the darkness, finding the short broad frame of Jokin. Resiting exclaiming his name, she slips into the room with him. His dull eyes track her every movement. “Do you know how to get out of here?” She whispers as close as she dares to his ear. “Yes” He dulley adds. “does me no good, all the doors and windows are glued shut or you need a key.” She raises the ring from her palm, pressing it delicately into his. “Go to the alley behind the Three Sheep Pub.” She whispers, a sad smile playing on her lips. His eyes dart from this unknown woman to the door. “Thank you.” He whispers before beginning to glide with the long learned grace of a cat towards the door. She follows, clicking the door shut behind them, her eyes watching him dart down the stairs, easily missing the creaking steps. Dejectedly she silently moves back to the sitting room. ~ There she sits, Stiring absently at a cup of lukewarm tea, the woman who Emilia said was looking for me. “Hello, what can I do for you?” “I let Jokin free.” Anger surges through my veins. “He's a good man, and a better spy.” her face seems to glaze, she slowly lifts the cup of tea towards her face. “I trained him myself. You had better leave him alone. But you can take me, Irina Jans, the one who never got caught.” She lifts the cup all the way to her lips as I take a forceful stride towards her, only to watch the life be snuffed out of her slowly. ~ “Jokin!” Natan exclams as the short man comes round the corner. “Nat!” he reaches forward grasping him around his waist. “I knew I could trust that fancy woman.” He draws back, a smile spreading across his face. “Irina must have found you.” Natan happy adds, looking expectantly for her to round the corner “No, No, this was not Irina, far too old and…” As realization comes to his features, streak of terror crosses the rugged features of both men. For Irina was much older then when Jokin had last seen her. “God no, Nat! She.. She let him kill her for me.” A single tear on Natans cheek reflects the last ray of sun light.
  6. December 25th, 6:34 PM

    This feels so intimate. I like how well you show us the emotion. I feel like overall this piece is a bit all over, I think it would be well served to have an editing session. One thing I would look at is the first and second paragraphs, which might help the flow. Thank you for sharing.
  7. Over and Over

    The second to last lines in both stanzas are in italics, which somehow did not show up.
  8. Seal Song

    This piece is pleasantly confusing. At first I form an image of a human - an outcast maybe?- but as I read on I find that I believe the speaker is a seal. In the end I am in a state of confusion that makes me want more, I could read page upon page of elaborations from this poem. I feel like lines 1&2 are awkwardly split, it one of the few things here that I do not make me feel totally engaged.
  9. Nothing is Wrong

    “I can’t see anything wrong.”, If its not anything you can see then it must be worse, It could be a myriad of things that nothing will fix, Even time will worsen them, Or I could just be fabricating this, My brain could be a big bad liar, Who has put me through hell over the past few years, Nothing is fucking wrong you say, Oh, but it might be Lupus or Limes disease, Last time I checked neither of those were all the rage, Could I please have something that just needs time, Hell, I would take surgery over this crap of a diagnosis, I want to be able to pick up a fucking plate, Without all the pain, Could I please be able to open a door, I’m not asking for being an athlete ever again, But I want to be able to live on my own one day, Until I can strain pasta thats impossible.
  10. Getting Better

    This a such a touching piece. I love the rhythmic pace it keeps throughout. One thing that seemed out of place was the word 'hear' on the sixth line, was it a typo? Thank you so much for sharing this piece with the world. We need more of this hope and optimism especially when things seem at their roughest, which was so greatly illustrated by your words.
  11. Hair

    I wish I could say it all came off with one chop, but alas, as one of extremely thick hair it was closer to thirty snips to get through my pony tail. My hair was nothing special, brown with golden highlights in the summer, falling just far enough to fully cover my breasts, dead straight with the exception of ringlets around my ears. Now its even less extraordinary, laying on the top of my shoulders with a bit of a flip at its ends, I always dream of having long hair that just can’t be ignored, but whenever I get close my neck reminds me why I have failed so many times before. My hair is so thick that just ten inches of it weighs 5 ounces. Everyone who has to work with it can’t believe how thick it is, source of wonder and frustration as three of us vaulting girls struggle to get our hair into the buns needed to enter the competition ring and the ungodly hour of 8:30, I’m not saying 8:30 is early to be awake, but when you factor in warm up of an hour and another to get hair and makeup ready its bloody early to be at a barn, in spandex. Now back to why I started this, Hair, not random spandex rants. for as much as I miss my hair those ten inches will be loved enough to make it up, I am donating to locks of love, a wonderful program, that makes wigs for children rendered bald for medical reasons. Someday I want to meet the three different kids who have my hair, I sure its three as that is how many times I have donated. imagine the wonder of seeing what my too heavy and thick mane can do for children who otherwise would be struggling along with headscarves. Not that that is a bad thing, but that being your only option sounds dull.
  12. The Ultimate Challenge

    The rhythm of a canter holds me together, and stretches me to my limits. At the canter you are invincible while you fight to hold yourself together. Equestrians battle with internal issues at the pace set by their horse. We are in control and yet ever so close to losing it, in every second. Holding a thousand pound animal together is a difficult task, as they want to put themselves together crooked or in a bucking frame. To hold the upper hand we must have total control of our bodys. The way we shall bring the horse underneath itself and us is with our bodies, communicating our wants and needs while absorbing the rocking and occasional jolt. I hold utmost respect to any who can not only control their own bodies in athletic motions but also support another being. I mostly think of equestrians but also I think of cheerleaders, dancers and figure skaters. Sports are made to challenge, I admire somes feats more then others, like the stacking of humans with grace on a cantering horse that exemplify equestrian vaulting so well. Or the bond formed by eventers with their horses, that allows them to dance, run helter skelter at huge solid objects and soar. Or the moments of true grace that can be formed by a pair of dancers. As an equestrian I am biased, I know the sweat blood and tears that go into being one, well I have never felt what it takes to partake in football, soccer or golf. I appreciate the effort put into a volleyball tournament, but that shadows compared to the immense awe I feel when watching a dressage test or equestrian vaulting freestyle. We might dress funny. Really when was the last time nude colored pants were fashionable? Always in equestrians and never in normal people, with the exception of vaulters, nude is a bad color for spandex suits, very bad. And when was the last time you thought, hmm, I want to wear a big hard plastic hat? Never, really helmets aren't the material of normal society. See glammed up as we make ourselves equestrians are not normal, where whack jobs who have large animals at our disposal. Not too dangerous as we are more focused on our perfecting a pattern then the non horse obsessed part of the public, but you should steer clear of large groups, death by horse talk is a thing. Don’t believe me? Go to any barn and try and sit though a days worth of horse talk, we only make sense to others who speak equestrian. Truly amazing we function in society.
  13. We Are

    We are GRACEFUL We are STRONG We are BRAVE We are PRECISE We TRUST We have POISE We are DETERMINED We WORK as a TEAM We PERSEVERE We are VAULTERS
  14. Don't Bother

    I’ll let you touch me Only if you have a reason If you do You're in luck I’ll suck it up I can deal with it Awkward as it may be It’s needed And really want else can I offer My stand’s not so dependable I not am little kid anymore So yes you may sit on my chest Yeah it kind of hurts But you don’t worry yourself about that You have other things to worry about Like not dropping people All I have to worry about is you I appreciate the concern Really But no need I am a big girl Pain I can deal with So let me Hey! A second thing I can do! I let you touch me and I deal with pain Thats it Fat chance broadening me anytime soon Its sweet when you try But what a waste Don’t bother shoring up my self worth Really not worth it See her? Yeah her She can make you famous I’m not going to ever be as good as her So no need to prevent me from internally crumbling Long term I won’t matter So I should make this easy And stop relying on your kindness Pinky swear never to make you watch me cry again Cause I can bottle that up with the pain Makes for a lovely night But you don’t need to know how normal it is for me to bawl You’ve only seen me lose it once I plan on that being it Because I’m just a suporter Don’t bother with me, you're headed places.
  15. Good Bye June

    Sticky foreheads Wilted flowers Bright blue skies Crack of electric fence Whistles of countless birds Still hot air People resting Yet the chickens cackle And the horses call Whirring fan Panting dog Blinds drawn Summer is here Gone is rain for days Baby birds are about Coats sit unused June is coming to a close July is knocking at the door August is laying out its plans September bides its time Ready to shun us to school And days of pouring rain Let us enjoy summer While we are young And free
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